Life Recently

Last weekend we took a flight to Salt Lake City to go to Jesse's best friends wedding. We were so excited to be there and share this amazing event with them! Jesse and Tyler are like brothers and have been best friends since diapers. So of course we had to be there! Plus Jesse was the best man, so up to Utah we flew.

The wedding was beautiful. The sealing took place at the new Oquirrh Temple in West Jordan Utah. I love going to temple marriages. It was incredible to see two people bound together forever by the priesthood of God. Going to a live sealing always makes me think of my own wedding, and what I wonderful husband I was so lucky to marry!

But back to the Bride and Groom. Tyler picked an amazing wife! We love AmiCheri, and we can't wait to get to know her better. She was absolutely stunning... and they were both glowing. I'm not much of a photographer, but I did try to get some shots of them first coming out of the temple. I couldn't really take more because my babysitter (Jesse) had to be in the pictures, so I had to hang on to Lyla.

We also meant to take a family picture since we were already dressed up for a wedding, but we forgot... so here are pictures that we took of each other with Lyla outside the temple.

It was supposed to be warm and sunny in Utah, but it was not! It was cloudy and so cold... but lucky for me I came prepared, which was a miracle, because I am never prepared. I packed cardigans for Lyla and myself, and I packed Lyla some cotton tights... and thank goodness I did, because it was chilly!

After the pictures there was a beautiful luncheon in the Joseph Smith Memorial building. The food was great, and AmiCheri's aunt and cousin (I think) played live violin and piano music. It was lovely. Everything was so elegant and tasteful. It almost made me sad I didn't actually do anything for my wedding. I kept it really low key, and simple... but you know, you only get married once, might as well go all out, right? I would say "maybe next time" but I really hope I don't ever have a next time!

So of course I must post a smattering of pictures of my sweet girl, because I think she is adorable!

Lyla in Nana and Papa's back yard,

pretending to eat yogurt out of an

empty yogurt container she found

I just liked her eyes in this one! So blue

I sweet friend gave us halloween cinnamon rolls,

and Lyla hoovered them!!! (and so did I)

I was cleaning the bathroom, when I realized it

seemed awfully quiet... so I searched the house

to find my Lyla in the dryer. Funny thing is

I didn't leave the dryer open... she is learning all

sorts of new tricks these days!

Well fall is in full swing here at the Tucker house, and we have had lots of fun decorating for Halloween. I have some minature pumpkins and gourds sitting in a basket on the table, and Lyla has been placing them around the living room and carrying her basket around to pick them back up again. My little harvester! I'm debating wether or not to sew her a costume, or just dress her up as a scarecrow (which I think would be adorable!), but I can't decide.

Oh, one more thing, Lyla went potty on her little toilet today! We aren't potty training her yet, but she is fascinated with her little toilet, so we talk about how to use it alot. Well today she told me she was stinky, but she wasn't, and then she went and got her chair. So I took off her diaper, and she did the rest! Sweet deal for me. But she does lots of tricks once, and then never does them again. This will be one of those times. But I did try to play it up by clapping, giving her a piece of halloween candy, and cheering about it for a long time afterwards... in hopes that it will encourage her to do it again. We shall see.

Sure beats the smell of a clean house...

...Fried potatoes that is! This morning I took the rare opportunity to make and indulgent breakfast for my family. I always cook, but I usually keep it as healthy as possible. When we first got married I made fried potatoes, biscuits and gravy, and all the other tasty, but fattening feasts. Well due to weight gain, and a general feeling of unwellness, I stopped.

Well recently Jesse has been asking where the fried potatoes went. So this morning I decided to cook up a good ole Camry breakfast. It was so good, and so fattening, and so delicious smelling!
I love the smell of fried potatoes, and lucky for me, my house has smelled like it for hours... in fact as I write, I stop and sniff because my house smells that good!

I know it is a silly thing, but it sure did make me happy. And I like to be happy. Which is probably why we ate so many fried potatoes in the first place ; ) Maybe I will just have to have them sparingly instead of not at all. So in place of cleaning today, I am doing nothing, in hopes that the fragrant smell lingers as long as possible!

A Bit of the Crazies

So recently I got a bit of terrible news. The kind that makes you question just about everything... even your own sanity. I can't change it, I can only accept it. Or I can hate it.
(FYI, no one died).

At first I took it really well, it seemed so surreal, I just couldn't really grasp it. But the more time goes by, the more real it becomes. And it is starting to affect me negatively. In order to not let it get to me, I went through this phase (or am going through this phase) where I feel like I have to revamp my life. I am trying to be super wife/mom/woman, and I'm being hyper vigilant about everything. I even thought about starting a new blog about something... setting a goal to get through the 9 huge boxes of fabric I have saved (thinking this might give me purpose...yeah right).

I thought I could escape the past by being this insanely "ideal" person in the now and future. Escapism, what a cheap imitation for real coping.

But I don't want to cover up the real me with this stupid super-persona, or a blog that won't really help me become anything, except for maybe a little more pressed for time. I just want to be me, and realize that it is enough. My purpose and individual worth is not contingent upon anyone else, nor is my happiness a consequence of another persons happiness or unhappiness. I am not at the mercy of other peoples mistakes. I am Camry Tucker. I have a beautiful marriage, a wonderful daughter, a safe home, and one heck of a life.

So lately my emotions have been up, down, and all round. I might have a bit of the crazies, I think it runs in the family. But after all, don't we all have a bit of the crazies?